utterly exhausted

utterly exhasusted is how i would say im feeling right now!!
the kids have the hand foot mouth virus.
kingston got the fever tuesday evening so was up pretty well all night with him, and pretty much went from bed to the couch on wednesday, so grizzly and HOT!he cooled off early thursday morning and then the spots arrived, on his ears, round his mouth, hands, elbows, bottom, none on his feet surprisingly, and inside his mouth!!so as hes eating he randonly starts crying and says owie pointing at his mouth, poor kid!
friday afternoon nikita started getting really grumpy,(i was so hoping she would some how not get it!)and then the fever started and then SHE STOPPED NURSING!!!she wont latch on!!!so up most of the night and would NOT feed!!started to worry a bit in the morning about dehydration but i got my pump out and used a dropper to feed her, offered boob- wouldnt take it, dropper, boob-wouldnt take it, then she started sucking the bottle which shes never done, offered boob-wouldnt take it!!so anyway shes been miserable all day, fever all day, and ive been pumping which hurts!!and she is already getting spots all over her bottom and legs, ears and under arms!
so looks like it will be night 5 of no sleep tonight, utterly exhausted!!
really my biggest concern, i so hope this is not the end of breastfeeding!!! im hoping its jsut the sores in her mouth that are stopping her from feeding and ASAP she gets back on the boob!dont know what i'll do otherwisse!!anyway, we'll work that out if we get there!
hope no body else has this virus!!
and hats off to all the mums who went or are going through sleepless nights with sick kids!!
once again
UTTERLY EXHAUSTED

.. some pics of the spots and blisters

- nikita's spot are worst since these pictures, her legs are red with rash!!it doesnt seem to bother her too much tho
-and so delighted,.....  nikita is back on the boob!!!  phewww